I am sure my kids would ask me to buy a new set of inflatable pool for them. I am actually planning to enroll them in a swimming lesson this summer. For someone who learned swimming by myself, I want my kids to learn how to swim too (even if it means spending on my part).

By next year, if our plans materialized, I want a pool on our garden. I already knew a reputable pool supply store and I already listed the things we needed for our very own pool.

Well, we’re not used to it, in our 12 years of being together, he never once gave a flower to me. And if ever he would someday, I will leave him. If others would whine on their partner not being sweet with them, me, I never mind. In fact I will mind if becomes extra sweet to me. I love him just the way he is and he changes, that is something I cannot take.

I have been earning enough, in fact I earn a lot last November- January, but I did not enjoy my earnings like I did before. The main reason, of course, is my mom. Since she’s been visiting us more often, I had to take care some of her finances. It feels great actually.. being able to help my mom with her finances. That has been my dream for a long time already. In fact, it was my driving force to work. And boy, I am so glad that I have the best husband in the world who understood my need to help my mom.

that has been my mantra since last week…since I saw the results of my scan from the  medical cart in the hospital.

I have to accept the fact and start moving on.. after all, life’s like that, right?

There is no use crying over it.. it’s over.. done.. the finality is in the air. All that is left for me to do is to accept it and move forward.

I cannot dwell on it… there is no use on dwelling, it will not solve it, it can’t do anything..

Accept it.. that’s all that matters and from there, resolve it..

I am almost done to the acceptance phase.. now I am trying to clear my mind and look for solutions.. It’s hard, specially if it will be the first time.. and scary too.. but yes, there is no other way but to move forward..

yes, when it rains, it pours! and it floods but as Sam puts it, even the great Noah flood subside, the water may not go away as quickly we hope it would be, but definitely the time will come that land will be dry again..

I have faith.. that’s all that matters.

and I had a hard time thinking what is it that I want.. in fact until now, I can’t think of any. It must that I am very happy with my life. I have my own family, I have a loving husband, I have 4 wonderful kids.. what more can I ask for?

Really, no material things can amount tot he happiness I am feeling right now. It is overwhelming, it’s very peaceful. And with that, I said to myself, I will never entertain negative thoughts. Yes, from now on, I would be a very happy person with a very happy disposition in life.. after all life is too short to spend even half a minute on negativity

CHEERS everyone!

If ever I will want to learn something new, it would be how to play a musical instrument like electric upright bass. I think learning an instrument is good stress buster too.

Have you ever tried listening to songs when you’re lonely? Trust me, it can take the lonesome away, well not unless if you will listen to medley songs or those that can add up to your loneliness.

On this day forward, I am letting go of this ill feeling. On this froward I will be more mature and think more before reacting. I will be more tactful and speak less. On this forward I will build a wall so that only those who has been with for years can see what is inside me. On this forward, I’d be more careful, I’d be more responsible for my actions, I’d be a better person. On this day forward, you will see a new me.

It brings back a lot of memories.. from my college days, from those days..

You know part f me wants to go back there.. just a tiny part, so little that only comes out on days like days, when I am too sentimental or when I am listening to familiar songs..

And I love this blog so much, this is the only place where I am at my truest self.. or when I am me at my most emotional state.

I have been wanting to have my hair colored again but pregnancies were always in the way.. finally last week, I had it colored! And my husband liked the result. I have been getting a lot of compliments from him lately